hey guys, i realised my comp can fianlly upload pics with blogspot, so since i find it more userfriendly, i’ll go back to blogspot…http://dance-fate.blogspot.com/, this blog will be stagnant from this moment!

ok, finally i am into my last week of NS, clearing off and leave,heh. and i got my car test date and i passed my riding assessment, things are gg smoother for me recently, thank God! tmr i am gna have my first car lesson with my so called head instructor whose car i am gna use for the test itself, so i hope it will not be too different from the intructor he gave me all these while. Apparently the head instructor only take students when the instructors under him has taught the student everything…good that i am finally progressing until i am with the head instructor…but still i find that i took too many lessons for a private instructor…13 so far…and more to come with head instructor…may end up to be ard 19? sianz…so much money, my fren did it in 8 lessons and passed his test…oh well…i guess i should be contended now relatively comparing to my previous situation whereby i was just driving on the road over and over again, not progressing at all…and my bike lesson, i guess i was lucky to get that instructor yesterday…he told us most of us should pass as long as we dun haf any immediate failure or get too much deduction…haha…and i really passed!!!a near miss though…got 18 points…1 more pt i will fail,haha. so i passed my assessment in 2 tries!!!so happy, cuz i got friend who tried 7 times and still failing and is now quitting…and i also heard the highest record is 27 times…scary. alot of friends around me asking y am i taking riding when it’s so dangerous compared to car…well…having a licence at hand is better than nothing, i am not intending to buy a bike, i am just getting the licence so that in the future if situation needs me to ride a bike at least i can ride one…yup, tts abt it for my licences updates…

oh and my uni, i finally decided to go to UNSW medicine after so long…i guess it doesn’t really matter where u take our med course, as long as you do well, there will be a space reserved for u and from there is where the real journey starts…previously i was pretty stressed and stuff cuz my uni not settled, my driving test date not confirmed, my riding assessment not passed…lotsa uncertainties, and i hate that feeling seriously…but now i begin to have a clearer picture of everything…

well, currently i am busy with making video for my army friends…we had this cohesion whereby we played amazing race…and now i got all the pics and videos and i needa make it into a dvd so that i can give it to my army friends as some sorta ORD gift for them( actly it’s requested by my csm…) but anw i tot of power point photo montage…but then how to play it on a dvd player? so then i tot of just burning everything into one dvd, well that saves me alot of effort…but as a perfectionist who have lotsa time now, i decided to make it like some movie dvd…so here i am trying to become some video producer using the programs my father got as one of the free gifts from buying his video camera from SONY. well the program looks real pro, and ya…v v complicated…there’s 3 programs in total, one for editting video, one for audio and one for making dvd…so basically i have to juggle among the 3, i cant just work with one…i needa make the video first, while using audio editor to edit the audio so that it can fit the video… after video is done, i will transfer it to dvd maker so that ppl can watch it on a dvd player…it looks quite professional now that i am like almost half done, hope the end product will be good! but the sense of achievement is really quite great when i finished one video for one of the teams…

well, i guess thats all for now…will update again soon…hmm…i still haven’t found out how to add pictures,lol.

hmm, i decide to start blogging again, after seeing my fren’s blog. He is in army too and having the same appointment as i am holding and yet he can blog constantly with pictures uploaded too,haha, i guess being busy is just an excuse man…

anw, i am gg to sleep like real soon because tmr is my riding assessment/lesson 5 and i want to maintain my one-lesson-one-try standard that i have been maintaining for the past 2 lessons. In case anyone doesnt noe wad i am talking about, i am learning riding motorbike now and it’s not like a car’s lesson, every lesson is like a test, you have to pass it to be able to book the next lesson to learn new stuff, so yeah.. i have been quite lucky to get lenient and nice instructors for past 2 lessons that i am able to pass in my first try!:D yup, so i am gg to sleep early tonite and have more energy tmr, not oni for the assessment, i got one busy day tmr. morning riding, then after that needa book in at Tekong for my ORD check up, then after that bk out again for my driving lesson at night…travel here and there, money money money…

k, will update more when i’m free…needa go find out how to upload pics again, i already forgot how…:P

i am just gna post it here cuz i bet nobody comes here anymore, so it’s ok for an emo post like this, but for those who have stumbled upon this blog cuz he/she has clicked on the wrong link or maybe just feel like coming here randomly, u’re in luck, get to know the latest update of the inner-me.

have i really changed for e worse? how much have i changed ever since i graduated? is it me who has changed or it’s just the people around me have changed? i can sense some change in me in terms of how i value frenships…dunno y, i just didnt bother at all to even make the effort to bring a camera during outings which i usually do, i just wanna get it over and done with and back to my only-army life, but it’s nt like i really enjoy army life, i guess i am just a lazy bum who cant be bothered with anything except for e compulsory thing in my life which is army cuz it’s compulsory…sometimes i feel quite bad about all these thoughts cuz those were friends so close to me last time…yes it’s true our busy lives made us distant and maybe tts y i didnt bother abt it anymore, but can we blame it on time alone? i think i shld take e blame man, it’s me who didnt bother to keep us close, it’s me who shut e world out? (isit this serious? nooo i am not becoming an eccentric person who shuts e world out) even andy sometime i couldnt be bothered with, sry andy for saying ur name here in e blog but u r e oni one who knows exactly y i have all these thoughts now so i guess it’s ok, as for my other friends i wun mention ur namess.

anw nd was like my closest fren in jc but even now sometime i would just turn him down when he asked me for outings even though i am totally free(sry pal), but it’s partially cuz my mum nags at me whole day long non stop abt uni and stuff and whenever i went out she would just complain non stop and said i shld give a tot abt my future but i haf alr settled so much, i guess there’s no enough in her dictionary and i must stay at home whole day and not using computer but get crazy over uni application. before starting to apply she would nag me to apply, after applied she would nag me to check results which obviously wouldnt be released just becuz i sent a mail requesting for it( a ridiculous idea by my mum which she would haf denied anw if she see this). after the uni offered me she would nag me to go try applying other unis in case my uni not the best( then WHY DID I APPLY IT IN E FIRST PLACE???), i think after i have applied all e other unis offering med she would nag at me about trying to apply other courses or start reading up on uni syllabus…HELLO???IS THERE AN END TO ALL THESE???even today i went out for e first time during this weekend and she was quite pissed abt it when i came back home for dinnner…i guess she never would know abt all those thoughts i had in my head whenever i am out"would my mum be angry again just becuz i am nt at home?(which she does most of the time, it’s not just me imagining)" "i needa rush home for dinner, in case my mum’s angry again(u can ask all my frens, i alw wanna rush home for meals so many times tt i am like a ps king, and yet she thinks i dun give a damn abt spending time with family)" she is really ridiculous at times, but shes my mum, but please, i am an adult already, i can plan, i can think for my own, i am an officer for a reason, i CAN PLAN AND ORGANISE MYSELF!so please stop treating me like some small kid who cant be bothered with his life and is just wasting his 2 years in army away. i didnt do it in front of u doesnt mean i didnt do it, i didnt tell u doesnt mean i did not think through before, so please stop assuming and get urself frustrated and then blaming me for making ur blood boil.

ok, enuf of sidetrack, this post is supposed to be about me and my attitude. yes i just got to know today tt actly some of my frens told my other frens tt i haf changed for e worse, it’s even hard to like me as a fren now, tt really saddened my whole day, am i really tt bad now? to guys i am just someone who complains whole day and dun give a damn abt them, to gals i am just some ungentlemanly inconsiderate and maybe even insensitive jerk…actly all these are relative. is it me who have changed or isit u who have nt caught up with me for quite sometime tt u are nt used to me anymore? i really dunno man, but i better just take it as i have changed for the worse…time to change then

these 2 years really sucked, officer so what? highest NSF pay so what? frens all drifting apart and those joy sharing moments between frens are gone, i am just a lazy loner now, hooray

i will change then, but may become some serious gentleman which is not who i really am alr, but my playful nature just isnt catchy at all now, nobody likes it. as for guys i will change for u as well, esp to my closest buddies out there, sry pals, will try my best to be bothered.

this post is getting really emo, i wonder am i just being sarcastic in rxn to the criticisms or just really really troubled by all these negative comments by my closest frens, especially those behind my back ones. nvm, time to book in…people, u can just ignore all the emo ventings, sry if u have bothered to read until this pt.

wow, let’s c who still comes here…

just wanna say army makes u abandon lotsa stuff, either forcefully or willingly, there is no choice…including this blog, abandoned for quite some time le…

well, e next time anyone c me updating mb will be when i ORD-ed le…10th nov…

YOOOOOOOOOOOOO, to whoever who still checks this blog every now and then and rolls eyes when seeing the 2-mth old post again

anw yes i am back, from brunei…erm 1 mth ago?lol. army really makes me become very lazy to do anything other than slack and slack more. ppl say that jcc can make u lose at least 7kg, well, for me thats nt the case leh…i oni lost 3 kg(but i alr looked like a skeleton, if anybody wanna c ask me for the photo which i took immediately after jcc), and i gained back 5!wahaha, it’s cuz of jcc that makes me think that i haf all e right in e world to just eat and eat, so that’s what i did for e few days after jcc and i gained more weight that i lost in 9 days,hehehe. but dun worry, that was quite sometime ago, after gg back to ocs life in sg, my weight went back to e normal 64kg again, around there lar. well, due to some higher intent, i am not allowed to reveal anything abt jcc, so sry, i can oni give one word:hungry.

after i came back to sg, first i have to get used to e absence of pam, hp seems so lifeless nowadays, oh well, back to e old chinese high days again i guess,haha. anw since i came back to sg, there’s outfield every week, not tought, just tiring and dirty. i can say i am an expert at camo now le, just treat it like u r applying facial cream, which is nt sth new to me, so ya, but no, i am not gay. and what are the outfield missions that i have went thru these few weeks? nope, cant reveal again, so yeah, just noe that my last outfield in sg in ocs was just over this week, hooray, no more outfield in sg le, so e next time i set my foot on any outfield site, i will be 2lta david,hehe.

gg taiwan next sat nite, haiz. timing quite wrong, my cousin just got married today and i can’t attend her wedding, army arh…really sucks e life outta me man, i missed so many things, can’t send my frens off, can’t attend my relative’s wedding…oh well. btw kim’s also in uk le, so now oni left me and yy in sg lo, and i dun even noe if yy’s leaving as well, haha shes forever changing her mind. comms ball nearing alr, my buddy’s like telling me it’s too late to ask after coming back from taiwan, so i am like wondering who shld i bring…oh well, i shall come up with a decision soon. all my female frens out there, just keep on praying k, hold ur hps close to u, for u may be e lucky gal that i call soon,lol, i am sooooooo ego, alright, but if i’m not then i’m nt me;) nd’s also in taiwan now btw, so basically my weekends recently have been spent at home slacking…oh and i have passed all my tests in ocs alr, left ippt to get gold oni, so i am quite happy and relieved, no more obstacles,hehe.haha forgive me if u think there is no flow in wadeva i have stated above, i am just typing wadeva that came to my mind…

i hope my cousin has chosen the right guy and i wish tt her life as a wife will b a joyful and eventful one, it must feel great to be so crazily in love man.

alright, thats it for now, bb ppl, i have updated e blog due to popular demands,cheers!

-dave

hey guys! i noe i have nt been updating for super long, guess i am just lazy and busy. anw gg overseas tonight for training le and i just feel like posting this song that touched me deeply and is my fav song for quite some time alr and still is! presenting to u…

非你莫屬

懂得讓我微笑的人　
再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門　
明天的美夢你完成

整個宇宙 浩瀚無邊的盡頭　
每顆渺小星球　全都繞著你走

愛我　非你莫屬　
我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福

愛我　非你莫屬　
也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

懂得讓我流淚的人　
給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕　
你同時點亮了星辰

看　那麼多相遇　偏偏只和你　天造地設般產生奇蹟
哦　我心的縫隙　我想除了你　任誰也無法填補這空虛

p.s. switch encoding to chinese traditional to see e beautiful lyrics(:

wow, i relaised i havent blogged for abt more than a mth:P well, that shows how busy i am with army…or it just shows how lazy i am too,haha.

ok lor,backtrack all the way to dance night…well, i am quite glad to c bboy club growing…the members have increased tremendously! Pak and i both were very proud to see our juniors performing and the club we started out shining. however i think last yr’s dance night was better…not because i am biased or wad, but just tat i dun really think including chinese dance is a gd idea, especially ending the whole dance night with one…last yr, we ended with a dance battle, i am sure the audience felt the concert ended on a high note…but this yr ended with a chinese dance, so i was feeling like "oh it ended alr? ok, gd job guys" and the bboy perf this yr was abit messy, partially due to too many ppl and it’s kinda hard to coordinate everyone’s every movement, so it’s not anybody’s fault, but on the whole it still looked cool.haha and for alicia, gd job, i was abt to take pics for ur that sexy dance but after the dance i realised i was too engrossed in the dance and didnt take a single pic for that dance,haha. haha i also realised felix was a sergeant last time, sergeant huang~ lol. Felix has been with us for the 2nd yr now, and i hope tat he has felt a sense of belonging to hci bboy crew alr and that he will realise himself that he is not just some random bboy on the street, he is part of the hci family alr, he is someone whom all the bboys in hci respect. I met some jnrs there too, like liwei, evonne, steffi, jess, zhang wei, yixiand of cuz clarice who performed really well that nite! i am kinda lazy to put pics here,heh, sry~

ok after that there is actly nth much lar…ok den the next big thing i remembered shld be platoon field camp…well…everyday rained…except for the day we did our digging, fortunately.anw i was appointed the defence PC, so basically i had to co-ordinate the whole defence exercise with the help of my runner and PS. because i had to dig my command post, i felt quite restricted.i could not idle ard like the rest of my platoon could, they could dig and go find others to chat for awhile before digging again, basically for them it’s OTOT(own time own target) but for me once i rest ppl will start to complain saying that i was slacking, so no chance to interact with my sectionmates, thus e whole digging was quite sian for me. our digging ended up being the best among the 3 platoons, of cuz it’s not due to me, it’s due to the hardwork of the whole platoon, think we were e oni platoon that stayed up thru e nite to dig…heard that platoon2 after 3am there was no sound at all, nobody’s digging,lol. i felt quite contended when i heard ppl like joel thanking me and telling me that i had done a good job leading the whole platoon,hwever, there are also some ppl whose names i would not want to mention that simply tot i was a lousy PC, they compared me to the cadet wing comd and said just behind my back literally(either purposely or tot that i couldn’t hear) that the diff between me and him is that i cannot work or make things work but he can, oh well…i guess they haf e right to comment wadeva they want. after e digging, somebody took over to become the PC for execution of defence,haha, i did all the planning, all e admin work and all the fatigue work of digging and now somebody else took over me to execute wadeva i have prepared for, great. anw it’s ok, at least now i can interact more with my close frens in e platoon. It’s gd that i went to become e buddy of Wei Da, my oni HCI fren in my platoon, we were quite close due to tat. after raining in e day, the fire trench was partially flooded, gd that it’s oni ankle level and not waist level, if not we would be swimming…e most memorable part while defending with wei da were the stand2s. for e first stand2, we go bored of being on alert and doing nth else, so we took out biscuits and fruitips and peach tea powder and started having a mini feast in our fire trench,heh. after we finished, just nice the instructors came to attack and the thunderflash kept on exploding, each time getting nearer to our trench, cuz our trench is at e bottom of e slope, we were super scared that e next one will simply roll into our trench and explode between us, but gd tat it did not happen:P anw after tat attack, the PC told us e instructors will attack again, so remain stand2.however, i did not think they will attack so fast, so i went back to find wei da, we laid out our groundsheet, changed socks and underwear, powder bathed, ate our dinner, had a little chat, den went to our shell scrape to slp until the next morn 6.30am when someone called our names to remind us to be in stand 2. We woke up after that to go into our trench just 5 mins b4 e instructors attacked again…hahaha, can u believe it…some ppl actly stand inside their trench the whole nite on alert while we were enjoying all these simple luxuries.XD after the defence was e attack…i was appointed the runner…y…y me again…anw i carried the signal set and rushed up the 85m tall hill with the rest of my platoon, almost died, but it was gd training, haha. basically that’s all abt my platoon field camp, also e first time my LBV and long four were that dirty.

next, let’s tok abt pam’s bdae celebration. ying and i went to recce e ground 2 hours b4 we met pam…we found this place called the ark cafe, a place with gd atmosphere. went to pick pam up at abt 8pm and brought her to the ark. we had lotsa fun listening to the live band there playing songs that we requested, it’s mostly chinese songs, so we enjoyed it alot! cuz there was oni 3 tables and 1 table left halfway, the other table was e singer’s bf, so oni left our table requesting songs, so we basically got what we wanted all the time except when they did not know how to perform e song,haha. i even went up to sing yong bao while playing e guitar…was having runny nose and flu tat day so didnt sing very well, and i dunno y, mb too long nv sing le, i actly couldnt catch e first note of e song until after awhile, oh well…but i am sure e 2 gals wun mind.XD and dun worry, kim, u will join us next time k…e food there was okay, it’s mostly e atmosphere and e performance that i enjoyed alot, i will visit there often next time with ppl like nd, nic, huiwen who also enjoy chinese songs:D anw hope pam did enjoy herself that nite, cuz we certainly had(:

my service term is coming to an end in like 2days time…3 mths just flew past liddat, can still rmb tat time how i dreaded coming to the tango wing, e new envt and everything, but now i think i am gna miss my sectionmates who have become quite close to me…at e same time i am also quite excited to know where i will be posted to, if i got posted to support arms then coming sunday i will be flying off to brunei le, fast yet true…will update again soon, hope i wun drag for another mth.XD haha everytime i dragged and a long post will appear, sry man, for those who have been constantly visiting my blog, it’s either i dun haf anything new to entertain u all or i haf a super long post which u may get sian reading halfway cuz it’s simply too long,lol

anw random fact, HI154 guys all got into OCS, hooray…

no time to update…sneak preview: MOSAIC 2007 rox;)

This week in ocs quite slack…labour day…den wed booked out for dentistry interview, which i think i screwed up again cuz they ask me some facts abt dentistry which i dunno and they expect me to now which i expect myself to learn during the dentistry course itself…oh well, the interviewer abit scary, she was like," You dunno abt these and u still apply for dentistry??" den i broke down and cry and tot i was done for…no la, i didnt break down and cry but i did think tt i was done for, a smile was still on my face though throughout e interview, wad else can i do right…den i had my ippt test and still didnt get gold, sianz……den thurs to sat all signals package, slack like crazy, no exercise at all…but at least it made me change my view towards signals officer, now i want to go signals instead of armours, haha, can slack more:P

anw ytd was great. went out with the lards+Aaron wong(who still doesnt wanna be recognised as lard). We basically had super long chats, it was quite fun, catching up and gossiping. We went to secret recipe to haf a drink first. I drank ice blended mocha which i tot was quite cool le, compared to aaron wong’s supposedly nice drinking plain water, then wang hao ordered "english breakfast tea" wah, sound so cultured…anw dunno how aaron wong got all those supposedly juicy info abt me and alice from his MP friend, but most are inaccurate anw, or shld i say all, haha aaron, u have to believe me man, i am e one that went thru it, of cuz i noe wad happened lar! so after that wang hao left and we went to billy bombers to eat, basically it’s pretty funny seeing how aaron wong wanna charge me for everything i did,lol. den we haf this super funny convo:

context: aaron wong showing us prom pics, and we came across cheng yin’s one

XH: u noe cheng yin wore like some chinese lady, eh no, like er….wads that show e princess one…isit sinbad?

sarah and i look at each other…

Me: err, i think it’s aladdin

XH: oops, yeah aladdin (and everyone bursts into laughter)

haha sinbad and aladdin r super different man…we also spent sometime explaining to sarah and XH what’s the diff between post and rank…haha, when aaron said he can take charge of military discipline and wang hao said he can save the commandos at e war front line, i tot to myself," hmm, i can pump my man, ok, i am quite useless" haha oh well…but it’s ok, as long as my pay is the highest:P we went to esplanade after dinner, not bad, then aaron wong started complaining about all the emo couples after breaking up at very young ages,haha, den he became very emo himself toking abt the blogs and msn nick names of those emo ppl,haha. i guess he will understand y they r so emo when he gets a gf himself in e near future… 

i really miss talking to them, although we havent seen each other for so long or even chatted on msn, when we came tog and talked, we talked like as if ocip was ytd, nice bonds we haf there…too bad heidi wasnt there, i was hoping she will be there lor, hasnt seen her ard for so long, wonder how she looks like now, nvm, she told me she will plan the next outing, haha, i’m waiting;) and oh yeah, we discussed abt a thailand shopping trip that we want to haf at december 2008, sounds pretty cool and fun man, with aaron wong the bright mind, he can plan everything abt lodgings and transport and airfare for us, and it sounded quite affordable, looking forward to it.haha aaron was saying "tat is if we r still frens by then" lol, dun worry, as long as we meet every now and then, we will be gd frens man, so the trip shall be no prob;) (cuz e dates not confirmed, aaron actly suggested to block out the entire month beforehand just for e 5-day trip,lol, yeah rights…)

aaron seemed happy to be in mp, i am glad he is enjoying his army life now, although abit too obssessed with charging officers and officers to be,haha, and wang hao seemed quite depressed for not being able to stay on in the leadership course in commandos, but dude, dun worry man, being a commandos is alr an achievement, furthermore u r e frontline medic, singapore’s future lies in ur hands man;) (if we ever haf a war that is) xh still as cheerful as alw, sometimes i wonder if she is really alw that happy or just putting up a smile cuz she doesnt want us to worry, but anw xh u shld noe by now that wadeva aaron niaoed abt u he doesnt mean it, so dun worry, u r not a stupid woman or wadsoever(: and sarah still looked like she got everything in control, no fear no trouble,haha, good for u, hope to c u in NUS as my classmate man…

alrights, this post sounds more happy than previous ones huh, haha i hope i am really this happy, so much stuff troubling me now actly…ippt, leadership test result, interview results, blah blah blah, my bravo fren actly told me that he finds me suppressing myself alot in tango wing, like so different as a person, he used to know me as the crazy guy in his section which joked ard alot, but now i am just contended staying in my room…i also dunno whether my joke will be appreciated by tango ppl or not tats y…oh well, field camp coming up, welfare field camp, cya, in 5 days time…